that sinking feeling

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wrote some weird poetry while dissociating.

they
they see
they see me
they see me well
they see me well enough
they see me well enough to
they see me well enough to hurt
they see me well enough to hurt me

i
i will
i will break
i will break down
i will break down and
i will break down and yell
i will break down and yell at
i will break down and yell at myself

my fault
my fault
my fault
my fault

the grace
they had
they spare
my voice

the mind
i weep
i break
their code

memory of
you

flying
away
under
low
temperature

find
our
remembrance

blue
enmeshed
in
neverending
gratification

her
every
reason
exists

mannered
yelling

flaking
anger
umber
lovely
tones of red and grey

face the fear
or suffocate
remember what is dear

beaten
every cell of me
i weep and cry
not closing my eyes
goodbye

never accepted
only rejected
they watch and stare, i just can't bear

rounded
edges
a final word, i
loved you.