i kick a rock and die

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man jealousy's a bitch and half of the time i usually end up shooting it down because Dude No What The Hell Are You Doing Wrong Place Wrong Time Can You Quit etc etc. but it still happens because haha Crippling Inferiority Complex. bullshit gut reactions but i mean?????? granted emotions usually happen For A Reason and (gestures vaguely at two sentences ago) i've mostly got that figured out but if. i mean. the Root Cause that spurred that in the first place is something that's got zero way of addressing right now because This Body Is A Fucking Minor With No Job And No Way To Live Alone and (GESTURES AT MY PROBLEMS) yeah i can't exactly get out yet. but i think writing this at all will?? i mean at least i can start deconstructing it maybe. goddamn being self aware when you're deep in the shit and have zero way out sucks </3